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Friday, May 11th, 2007
6:19 pm	i haven't used this thing in AGES. im really sickkkk and school is almost over and i promise promise promise i shall have a scavie hunt list done by the end of may. or beginning of june. my last final is tomarrow. anddddd i love hot hot heat. but everytime i listen to them i cant get someone off my mind. awkward. well. thats it. kay bye. (Comment on this)
Monday, December 11th, 2006
1:56 am	Well. things really couldnt be better. i am loving life. and ive been so happy i havent felt like this since before matt. when i was ALWAYS happy. hanging out with tawny has made me learn to appreciate people more. that girl is so amazing and smart. im so glad shes one of my best friends. but all my other besties dont get home till my birthday makes me sad i wish i could see them more. thursday is my birthday everyone and im having a scavenger hunt that weekend. so tell me if u wanna go. love you all (Comment on this)
Thursday, November 30th, 2006
3:13 pm	Nate just left a dozen roses  at my front door <b>for no reason!</b> woowwwwww i cant stop smiling. Current Mood: loved (Comment on this)
Thursday, November 23rd, 2006
7:43 pm	so, i think it's about time i updated people on life. i have been going through a lot of change and i have to say, i like what i am becoming and what i have now. i realize its okay for me to get upset, and be more dimensional. i am hanging out with people i love, and trust. i couldnt really ask for better friends. they know who they are. one in particularbr /> hint-- they are in my "square" love you dollface. and i have a new boyfriend. some of you have already had the pleasure of meeting him. Nate i have someone: who doesnt mind kissing me in front of his friends,  introducing me as his girlfriend,  holding my hand, just going near just to be near me, defending me(even if it's people i know joking around),  someone who calls me just to say or goodnight.  who will argue with me in a playful way,   likes me even though im weird as fuck.  or will protect me from the spiders hanging out on the roof.  or will tickle me just to cheer me up.  or sometimes he'd rather just give me a hug goodnight because he says i dont hug him enough. i m just really lucky to have met him.   lets just hope that this doesnt turn into another matt situation. thats why im holding back on him.  so ya. but other than that happy thanksgiving and i love all my friends dearly im so glad everyone is home. Current Mood: thankful Current Music: One man drinking games - mayday parade (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, September 8th, 2006
1:51 am	So i've hit a self realization point i hate what ive become since last year it sickens me- to look back and see how much ive changed and not for the good either. my life has become boring. everyday- the same thing. wakeup.shower.work. cigarette.home.homework. cigarette.volleyball.cigarette.class. cigarette. cigarette.home.myspace.sleep. i hate the fact that i've become a bigger flake, and this time i have reasons. i cant keep promises. life for me has become this tedious task of just living.. but not really living. i hate the fact that i smoke now just to feel good, or at least to feel something. makes sure that im real,and still living.  i cant get a grip on this growing up thing. its not my style. and the sad part is that- im boring i want my old life back where i was always at a constant state of happiness. this whole "this is the real world sweetheart" makes me hate things even more. i hate the fact that ive become so judemental i hate the fact that i dont even care about anything anymore i hate the fact that i have to listen to voicemails just to keep myself updated on my best friends life. and it sucks because she is having more fun than me. going to college was supposed to be fun i've barely made friends, but i guess its because of my lack of trying. i havent even bothered to actually hang out with anyone since Nicole left. i guess this is growing up. life isnt all fun and games, nor will it ever be, at least it seems. i miss ... my old life. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, September 4th, 2006
2:01 am	uhm FUCKKKKKKK jess is the only one that kinda knows whats going on. i have to update her too. i love you jess (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, August 17th, 2006
11:39 am	fuckkkkkkkk i hate goodbyes (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, July 30th, 2006
8:16 am	i swear the wierdest shit happens to me! ijust got asked to be in a 3some with some couple i just metttt AWKWARDDDD (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, July 23rd, 2006
1:59 am	ya tess owns: ARE U SHITTING ME I JUST LEFT U A FATTY COMMENT AND MYSPACE IS DOWN AGAIN! ya tess owns: its ok it went ya tess owns: i made sure NJLSJS: lol! ya tess owns: because i was gunna hunt down tom and kill him then take over myspace ya tess owns: id be so popular NJLSJS: lol!!! ya tess owns: what if someone actually killed tom ya tess owns: do u think itd be on the news and stuff ya tess owns: like NJLSJS: lol. it would be like a national holiday ya tess owns: tonights top story tila tequila kills tom from myspace ya tess owns: new myspace leader needed NJLSJS: like presidents dayu NJLSJS: lol rebellion!! ya tess owns: hahahaha like they run elections for president of myspace ya tess owns: id totally run for it ya tess owns: because we all know that more people listen to the president of myspace than the president of our country NJLSJS: lolololol so true ya tess owns: you can be my ambassador for chicago NJLSJS: lol. yessss. ya tess owns: run shit over there regulate ya tess owns: i pledge alegence to the flag of the myspace of america and the extended netowrkfor which it comments one nation under tom indivisable with picture comments for all NJLSJS: lol. woooooooow. NJLSJS: wow, tess, holy shit. a tess owns: i think that was perhaps the funniest thing i could ever have sed in the history of my life Current Mood: crazy Current Music: 30 seconds to mars- the kill (Comment on this)
Saturday, July 22nd, 2006
6:23 pm	im so glad that i have my best friend nicole jean leonard but there are a lot of things that have got my mind ..... wondering? i mean there alot of thingsi want to say openly but i know it would just be awkward i think i am becoming more happy with my life but i know i am going to be torn apart when nicole leaves it just sucks sometimes people confuse with their songs  i wanna say so much  but it wont come out does that work? (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, July 10th, 2006
12:57 am	so there is like no one online right now i need to talk to someone someone who has truly known me since last summer i have so many questions to ask  and that need to be answered i mean sterling and i had a long talk and he really got me thinking i dunno sometimes people can be really deep without meaning to be (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, July 6th, 2006
12:03 pm	HAPPYBIRTHDAY KATI I LOVE YOUR GUTS LIKE NO OTHER AND FOR THOSE WHO DIDNT KNOW I GOT MY NIPPLES PIERCED (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 6th, 2006
11:16 am	im obsessed with kati!!!!! and nicole and haylei and nicole and mindy and marisa and inbal and emma and brosh and megan and jaime and viebs and erik and ilysse but mostly kati she makes me smillleee (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, May 11th, 2006
4:36 pm	when i find out whoever called my house and talking to my dad you are dead its none of your business how i lose my weight i dont do drugs ok?!!?!?! goddamnit its none of your business how i lose weight (Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 25th, 2006
11:19 pm	CFH (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 19th, 2006
12:14 am	HAHAHA I LOVE HAYLEI hello. my name is haylei n i represent the "even emos need love" foundation. today i am here to offer you a great deal. not only do we specialize in selling/ renting emos... we now have our very own emo on crack. see for yourself. isnt she cute guys? how can u resist. if you message me within the next 20 minutes you can purchase this one of a kind emo for only 4 dollars and 12 cents. OR!!!!! u can rent her for a mere 82 cents an hour. trust me... even ONE hour alone with this emo is worth a whole lot more than that. so.. message me now. if she aint ur type.. ur crazy... n if ur crazy we will have more emos for sale comming soon. Current Mood: crazy (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, April 13th, 2006
2:06 pm	You are a Slutcom 2, also known as the a lil' sleazy level of slutcom. You hook up with people on a semi-regular basis. You may hook up with random people sometimes, especially in a drunken stupor. How far you go will vary widely, but the options are more open and based on the heat of the moment. You hook up more than average, but that's OK. Take the slutcom litmus test! The slutcom litmus test originated in A Word of Advice. (Comment on this)
Monday, April 10th, 2006
12:45 pm	fuck i love spring break may the crunk force be with you hahaha Current Music: im a fake- the used (Comment on this)
Monday, April 3rd, 2006
11:44 pm	jason sharp really made me feel better tonight <3 "Tess... you're a masterpiece waiting to be discoverd" I'm serious though tess... : Think about it... think about who you are and who you could be... think about the fact that your life is not something to be apathetic about but passionate and intentional and inspired to discover, embrace, and become. : You are a masterpiece tess WHY tess. do you not understand that you've been divinely created to be JUST as much of a masterpiece that I am designed to be? no one was ever supposed to be a mere man. that made me feel so much better about life (Comment on this)
Friday, March 31st, 2006
10:16 pm	new STUPID hair yeah im lame i know but you still love me you have to<3 Current Music: Shiny Toy Guns- Le Disko (3 Comments |Comment on this)